I told him I loved him, and of course I lied. I know it’s bad to lie, but I want him to feel loved, I NEED him to feel loved… by me, because he needs me and he must know that I will be here for him… forever.
He’s not the problem here, he is all I’ve ever wanted in a man; I am the problem in our relationship. I don’t allow myself to let go and fall, because I am scared, scared to love him back, scared of the unknown, scared to get hurt. With this I realized that I’ll never be living if I live with fear. I want to love him for real, like the way I know he loves me, a love so pure that I can feel it when he’s not around. He loves me and I all I want to do is love him back fearlessly. Why can’t I?